I have suspended my site temporarily as I have stopped painting.

I will wait until my 16mm film dieppe mask is finished and if its successful I will feature it .

  ..my pictures need an explanation ..they are about reverse feelings, when pain I paint pleasure, when romantic I paint abuse…...too many people are preoccupied with perfection and prettiness when chaos or violence is the natural state of the human existence, the art is irrelevant most of the time, mostly copyists and colourists, very few thoughts, just a small space in time for anyone. although we believe it is organized , it's as a pinball machine ...we are all falling and rebounding in a rhythmic but predestined pattern .  my attempt to disorganize feelings is poetic but pointless , I am simply looking at paint moving and looking for memories in the images

 

colin heavingham

5ub.

 

What you call passion is not spiritual force, but friction between the soul and the outside world.

Hermann Hesse.      The Glass Bead Game

 

 

 

Mists

 

 

 

a breath so still

it carries on a gust

encapsulated in a speck its song

whispering it tries to pass as me

as mothers try their luck in mirrors far from home

she wanders with father's memory of oak

in the mists of mind the perched bird  from the gate of sodom

'go home' its broken tongue crowed

‘the weather breaks’

but will became her

blinded by the darkness

she answered

‘no use , I am lost’

corn ear of war

Watercolour and gouache

 

the bell dome

 

 

that bell of humour

ringing within the glass dome

when falling on ears of corn

words become the sounds of hell

mordant and drawn those eyes

listen to them

what they know

swear god or blood in company of men

linen folds with woven filth of body

the veins of channels full, salty and smelling foul

rejoice on wine and spirit downed

then drown on serious frowns in favour

they don't care for us either

they die for nothing

too solemn to laugh

suckle sweet though in your warmth

a distance from those paranoids

touching the inner thoughts haunting

allowing them to drift away

uniform 

 

self portrait

Digital photograph

cinematic painter

watrercolour

helpless as rooks look on

Watercolour ,charcoal pencil and photo collage

operator

watercolour

ivory tower

Watercolour ,charcoal pencil and collage

buried the xmoney

Watercolour ,charcoal pencil , photo collage

wilderness

watercolour

surveillance

Watercolour and collage

groin

watercolour

on the table

watercolour

dead stone

watercolour

minuet

Watercolour and collage

great wood

watercolour

dying cat

watercolour

fifi

watercolour

mordant eyes

watercolour

Xray eyes

Watercolour

buried beneath a cloud

watercolour

Imaginary lover

Found photograph and watercolour with collage

no virtue in seduction

Watercolour and collage

the guard

watercolour

The aisle

Watercolour and collage

benefactor

watercolour

Foret

Watercolour and collage